As I was lying in bed, doing my best to not leave the warmth of my cozy comforter, I realized the only reason I was not officially taking a step forward was out of simple fear. Now fear is definitely not simple, but you simply have two choices; you allow it to take hold of you or you decide to move forward. I had finally compiled enough work I was proud of, designed a logo with the help of a wonderful friend, narrowed down a vision and brand that I felt I could grow with, and thankfully figured out what in the world I was doing on this thing called Squarespace. Unfortunately, I continued to push back this website launch and technically allow fear to control me. With the beginning of a new year I felt myself feeling overwhelmed and easily sinking into the routine (or lack there of) of doing less work and feeling more and more insecure. Lying in bed that day, I also realized that this life the Lord so graciously has given me was never meant to be wasted away in bed all day out of fear or feeling insecure about a passion He has given me. A switch flipped, and I did not want to be that person. It is scary, exciting, confusing, and often hard, but I have never wanted to allow those hard parts to hold me back in life so why would I allow them to do so now for something I love and enjoy so much. I want to help people tell stories, to have parents remember the sweet smiles of their children, and to give couples a memory of one of the best days in their lives. But more importantly, I want them all to relive those emotions of joy, laughter, commitment, and love every time they glance at their images.
So this is me moving forward. Actively deciding to change and push through the fears I have. Putting all of my work out there, not just one picture at a time, but a chunk of work that I have loved working on for people to look at and hopefully enjoy. This blog post was the first step, and I will now continue to challenge myself by adding more and more work for others to see. It is still scary, but I am excited to just get it out there. The other day I came across a quote that convinced me even more to be confident in moving forward, "If you have a passion that consumes you. If it takes root inside of you. If it makes you dream. You should share it with the world." Funny enough, I found this quote on Squarespace. So here it is, a large part of me, and now something I share with you and get to call my job!